Let's move forward!

Well, I did it. I completed my HypnoBirthing certification! I'm so thrilled and proud of my progress. I even did it in less than 90 days like they suggested; I kind of thought I'd fall off the wagon, have trouble finding a test couple, and not be able to do it. But I did it. I admit to being worried I won't be able to get everything off the ground, or that I'll do something wrong. But I'm going to try. I know I have more birthing connections than probably any other type - except perhaps education, at this point - so I feel like I've got a good head start compared to some of the other women I took my class with. I've been doing pretty decent with my shopping ban, too. I've bought a few things, but I've avoided my impulse purchases (like fabric, books, and clothes). I've really asked myself "Do I actually NEED this?" before I bought anything (except food, I've let myself eat out). So far, all I've bought besides food was socks (when I went through my closet, I ended up with only 6 pairs of socks, which would probably be fine except two of them are wool socks, so I really only have 4 pairs of daily socks...) and kitchen cleaning rags (I went too long without washing ours, and they grew mold, and I couldn't get them clean). I even cancelled a lot of my subscriptions to pre-packaged foods in favor of buying the raw ingredients (like flour) to make my own things (like bread, muffins, and cookies). Overall I'm quite proud of my decision because it not only means I'm saving and paying off more debt, but it also means we're all eating healthier and my son is growing up on scratch made foods instead of store bought ones. I'm trying to work at setting things up and getting off the ground, but I admit to being exhausted after each day at my current job. Teaching is exhausting anyway, but this year in particular is draining me. Even on the weekends, I barely want to do anything except sit in my recliner and watch TV. Part of that, I'm sure, is because I'm pregnant, and I have a toddler. But I do find myself missing the aggressive attitude I used to have towards stuff like this. Even after Thorin was born, I was spending so much time at home (due to COVID) and not alone (because my husband was home, too) that I spent plenty of time researching and organizing starting my baby boutique (which was another one of my false starts). But now... I have very little motivation. We shall see how things go. I really need to simply push myself... but that's easier said than done.